Loving Inward, Living Outward, Looking Forward

An old high school acquaintance of mine author Brittney Pressley, recently wrote a book titled,  Loving Inward, Living Outward, Looking Forward: Life Lessons that Enlighten, Encourage, and Empower You to Regain Control Of Your Life. I noticed it on her FB timeline as I was strolling and thought what a great concept. I hope she doesn't mind that I titled my post this for tonight but a lot of my therapy and coping skills came from these ideas with out even knowing. When you connect with self and began to look at the things that cause you hindrance, you start to acknowledge that once you deal with an issue it no longer stops your flow. It's no longer a stumbling block preventing you from your purpose. I caught a glimpse of what the content entails on www.baucemag.com. I will be purchasing and supporting her and I hope you all do too, she truly has a presence to her. You can buy a copy of her book at

https://gumroad.com/l/brittp

I spent all day on FB and on the phone with family members. I'm mentally exhausted trying to get people to see things differently. During supervision with my boss one day she said to me, "Christine, stop trying to carry everything on your shoulders and just do your part. After you do your part and something is off, I will step in and do my part." That is how life is, sometimes we have to just do our part any let other sources step in. When I began sharing my experiences with others on other social media outlets, I didn't think much about the effect it would have on my family members or their close friends. I believed this to be my story and now that I had the appropriate platform to expose what goes on in households around the world, I was going to use it. I did, I took a risk at others emotional expense for the greater good.

I knew it would stir trouble, I knew it would cause controversy but that was my intention, to bring this to the forefront as I said in my earlier post. I am doing my part, this organization, this ministry is a testament to those who have gone years unaware of the damaged caused throughout their lives because of the detrimental acts that remained in their subconscious mind. No, Im no expert in psychology or am I trying to diagnose people, but it is a fact that the conscious mind reacts unbeknownst to the memories or feelings of the subconscious mind. That's why relationships are hard to retain, that's why spirituality seems like a folks tale, that's why families are continuously passing on generational curses because we are not DEALING with matters that have been swept about, put in the dust pan and moved to the garbage like it's going to disappear. No, like the trash, abuse lingers. I have had so many failed relations, either from dating, friendships, or work relationships, all because I was the victim. I couldn't cope, I wanted everyone and anyone to give me attention because this "happened" to me. 

Don't be mistaken. I'm not asking for your sympathy but more so your empathy so that we can come together as a people to get to the root of all of this, be supportive and start the healing process. I was speaking to a family member yesterday and we could not get on the same page because they thought that I was adding to the discord, dysfunction, and drama in our family. What? I was terribly taken aback, I continually tried to reiterate what The Yellow Teddy is about. This organization is about healing and bringing about positive family values and reunifying us, not tearing us apart.  How does an abuser and a victim belonging to the same family start to heal? How will the family respond amongst each other when they become divided trying to point blame and accusations? Whose fault is it when a brother and sister engage in sexual activity because they are acting out afflictions done to them by family members? Who will fix this? The church? What does give it to Jesus really mean? Does that mean "I don't know how to fix this and it's too complicated to deal with"? Come on, we have to do better. These are real issues that need to be solved and until they do our communities will continue to suffer and be oppressed. I believe this is the core of so many issues in the world and many sub cultures.

Saturday night I decided to go out of town to relink with a family member who I haven't seen in almost eight years. I won't tell her story because it is not mine to tell, however what I will say is we share similar experiences although her story might be more detrimental and psychological to some. When we were young we would hang together at family functions and dance and laugh and just be kids. Then time would pass and I didn't see her anymore, and the changes that I noticed about her when I did get to see her were significantly different, it was distant. So for the first time in about eight years we got to hang and we partied and we laughed and we danced and it was like old times. My heart felt warm, I noticed her shift back. She has embraced her identity and has blossomed into such a gorgeous soul. We spoke of positive things and uplifted one another and let our creative juices flow entertaining how we are going to bring change to the world. It so happened that in the process of vital moments going on in our lives we found one another.



We found LOVE in a hopeless place...

In looking forward, I want to inflict change and thought, something that this generation lacks. I'm a strong activist and advocate in things I believe in, and "online" my presence is known, people know what I'm thinking because they read my posts. Offline I have been blending in amongst the John doe's and Mary Jane's of this world and no longer choose to continue in it. My action is in speaking on it outwardly to people I bump into, causing awareness and alerting parents to be more attentive. I've been researching different groups and other organizations supporting the same cause. Point is I need a team to get the message out and the funds to market the idea and the resources to solidify the movement in promoting change, like getting families access to affordable therapist or volunteers that can help find activities and creative ways on rebuilding positive family relations through effective communication. Will you share and support what matters? Have you been looking to join an important cause? Will you join me and be apart of change? Please comment and share your thoughts. . Please continue to follow my blog at www.theyellowteddy.blospot.com and share with your family and friends.

Thank You.

"For all my yellow teddies"

 Quick thanks to fellow blogger Sherry Blossom who has been an amazing help to me so far in my new  blogging career. She has a few interesting blogs and the hook up when it comes to busy writers! Check her out at www.sherryblossombeauty.com and tell her that I sent cha'! Lol. She also told me about gofundme.com which is a blessing in a disguise, so thanks love!